Somebody needs to tell your parents, and having the psychologist do it might be easier than telling them yourself. Your parents are the people who control which school you go to, and if this school is pushing you into a dangerous place they need to make some changes to help keep you safe and sane.

OK, I just feel bad since they took care of me SOO much and now they are going to hear that I was thinking about suicide, they are probably going to flip

You have to look at the big picture. What caused you to think these thoughts? You know the answer to it. So, the best call would be to tell them this school is a huge weight on your shoulders and it's making your life a living nightmare. It has already pushed you past your breaking point and you really need to tell someone so they can change that. Let them help you. That's the first step.

It's really up to you to decide how much to tell them. You know the situation, and your parents, and yourself much better than any of us here do. You also know whether the suicidal thoughts were really serious or if it was just an idea that you were trying out on yourself. People who are venting frequently go over the top with their complaints because it feels good to let all the frustration out, and it's possible that you've done this. But the situation must be bothering you a lot if your thoughts are turning in that direction at all, and you need to find a solution to it.

There might be ways to get the message across without telling absolutely everything. You could ask the psychologist to tell your parents how unhappy you are because it's hard for you to tell them yourself, or ask him to serve as a mediator in a conversation between you and one or both parents. Then depending on how it goes you could decide whether or not to mention the suicidal thoughts. But if the thoughts really felt serious to you it’s best to tell them about it.

If you do tell the whole story, you can emphasize that it only happened once on an especially bad day, but it scared you. The school is making you depressed in general and you don't want thoughts like this to come back again. That's a scary place for your mind to go, and if it starts to happen a lot it can have terrible results.

I think I will tell him everything that I told you. When something bothers me, I keep it all inside and I always think what the worse that will happen if I tell them resulting in me keeping it in until I can't handle it do I cry it out.

We don't always get the outcome that we wanted when we talk to people about something, that's just a fact of life. So we're always taking some kind of risk when we open up. But there are times we need to talk because the cost of not talking is too high, and this is one of those times. This situation is having too much of an impact on you and it isn't something you can handle all by yourself. It sounds like your father is sympathetic, and it sounds like your mother cares - she does notice that something is wrong and she asks about it. She's kind of oblivious in some ways, for example her idea to get rid of your birds wasn't good, but she did listen to you about that and let you keep them.

Adults have a different perspective than kids do, and maybe she thinks that if you stick with it you'll adjust to the school program and you'll thank her for it later. Sometimes kids really are glad later on that their parents made them do something, and other times they resent it for the rest of their lives. But it sounds like this school is putting way too much pressure on you, and you're more likely to break than to adjust. She needs to know this so she can adjust her expectations of what's best for you.

Will your parents be disappointed that this school is too much for you? Maybe, and maybe you'll feel guilty for not having the level of success that they wanted. But good parents want what's best for their kids, and if your parents are good parents they'll get over it and find an alternative that works better for everyone. There may be other schools in your area that can give you a good education without wrecking the other aspects of your life, and/or you could go to public school and spend some time working with a tutor to pick up a little extra knowledge.

Your parents themselves can teach you things that they think are important, not in a classroom-teaching sort of way but just having discussions about things. I did that a lot with my son and it's very beneficial when family members share information in a mutually respectful way. You learn a lot about each other in the process and build a better relationship.

4 days ago, I asked my father what I should do about the school and he said he will try to talk with my mom about switching, well next morning my father came to the table and he started speaking with my mom about the schools, my mom said that I could switch in 10th grade because she doesn't want me to get held back, so in the meantime, I still have to face the wrath of having 11 finals a whole week and this stresses me a lot!!!

11 finals in one week? How does anybody expect a child to retain that sort of information for 11 important tests? How much longer do you have until 10th grade?

Until June

It's great news that they'll let you switch next year! The finals are going to be a challenge, but you don't have to put an equal amount of focus on every class. Some of these classes will be more important to your academic future than others, namely the traditional school subjects like math, science, history etc. These are the classes where a good grade will do you more good, so focus on those. If you have some particular career goal picked out already, spend the most effort on the classes that will help you reach that goal.

You mentioned before that there were some extra subjects because it's a religious school. The school you go to next year isn't likely to care too much about your grades in those subjects and the classes probably won't be needed for your future career either. Do what you can to get a decent grade in these classes, but getting high marks isn't as important IMO. You can investigate these subjects later on if you want to, and anyway you'll get more out of it when you have an adult perspective instead of a kid's perspective.

If you think they'll react well, you could tell your parents that you want to focus your time and energy on the most important classes and ask for their opinion on which classes they think are more important. You'll probably feel less stressed if you have a set of priorities and don't feel pressured to give equal time to everything.